I decided to get alittle personal here…

Well, for anyone who really wants to know, I am in a whirlwind right now. It’s a good whirlwind, but kinda scary and really emotional! Being pregnant has definitely changed my previously harmonious hormones into a big ball of messed-up-ness. But it’s not only because of that aspect of the pregnancy, but rather the pregnancy itself. I am THRILLED that we are going to be welcoming another little life into this world shortly, but if I’m being honest, I am a bit nervous. No, I’m a Lottabit nervous. 3 kids under the age of 3 is not what I expected when I first began this mothering gig. And mind you, I’m certainly not complaining, because I wouldn’t give my kids back for anything. I’m just saying, I’m dealing with preparing my heart for this crazy season! I know most moms can say this, but sometimes I wonder if I’m any good at this job!  I find myself asking these questions:

Will I be able to handle 3? (especially if it’s another boy. whoa!)

Will I EVER clean the house again?

How will we afford this?

And the Lord tells me every time: “You were made for this.” So, there it is. He’s in control and I need not worry. Oh Lord give me grace! Why do I think that I can’t afford 3 when God owns everything in this world? It’s not hard for Him to provide. I have no doubt that we’re in His will by having lots of kids, but I need some help with my unbelief here! And the cleaning thing. well. I think I’ll hire someone. haha!

Anyway, all that to say, God is good and He knows what He’s doing. I just need his Holy Spirit to help me be still and know that. Ya know?

On another note, the family just getting over a ‘bug’. It’s not fun. Luckily I dont think we’ve given it to anyone else, but pray that we all get over it soon! I’m not having morning sickness too badly, just a bit of a loss of appetite. If you’re wondering, I do crave one thing: Taco Bell. Yes, I know that’s bad and i try not to give in, but oh, it’s so good!

Easter is coming!! Is anyone doing anything fun?!!